this post was kind of spurred by the messages i get every day, often telling me that i’m inspiring and have a great blog, and congrats on my progress!, etc., and that led me to think just about how poorly i had been doing lately, and that’s not something i want to hide from my followers. so here we go.

truth is, i’ve been doing a shit job of living up to the types of things i promote on my blog. tumblr is still a way to de-stress for me, but posting here has become such a passive activity.. keep things running, but don’t take the time to let various posts that i reblog inspire me. i have not been making being healthy a priority in my life. it’s fallen behind school and work and partying and most importantly, being really lazy. it’s awful.

i’m currently at the highest weight i’ve ever been (152, most recent picture of me being here) and i’m lucky if i make it to the gym twice a week. i’ve lost motivation and am not in the right mindset.

that said, i’m taking some time to reevaluate and now that i’ve gotten down in words just how far away from my goals i’ve strayed, and how disappointed i am in myself, i’m working towards getting back on track.

if you’ve read this far, i guess what i hope you get out of this is don’t talk yourself out of your goals. i did, telling myself that i’d start next week, next week, next week, and now here i am, finally having to realize that i’m back to square one.

here’s to take two at this journey! who’s with me?